increase self trust

doubt, like poison, drop by drop, corrodes the soul, so forward, for word, forever for word

without fear or hesitation all obstacles melt away before thee. 'from the little book  "the seeds of the mother" from ' {Burma} 

i am 

these two words are speaking their living words, 

i am  

yet in human form the i am appears insufficient as a sentence and often requires back up, a verb, a noun, a proverb, a description an identity. 

to simply be 

i am

and the knowledge of this I AM existence  being enough of an identity, we, as living, doing, beings claim the doing the being the living as an identity to create more of an unique identity, a claim for our individuality and separateness of other I am beings or so it appears.

Learning through meditation practices , namely Master Stephen Co, Mooji and various Gurus, as well as the sound of Alan Watts and his voice describing the existence of nothing, whilst pondering the emotions spoken of by Trevor ILesley as he describes the experiences of traveling through the dark knight of the soul  over the lock-down experiment,  the i am identity in me has been guided to recognize what the i am in me unable to sense responsible for internal experiences of limited belief and the fixtures and attachment  of  false identities.

many GURUs spiritual guides meditational practitioners, help us to identify with the true I am for brief moments in our given meditational journeys, for there way of the journey is the only way and the only way is the whey YHWH.

what we learn in meditation is the i am that we are not, 

i am not the body

i am not the thoughts

i am not the emotion

we learn what we can claim

i am the user of the body

i am the thinker of the thoughts

i am the feeler of the emotions

i am in pain and i am not  the pain 

i am in grief, and i am not the grief

i am in anger and i am not  the anger

i am in conflict and i am not the conflict

what we are privy to pause and recognize is our observations of what the body is doing, how it is moving, how is it feeling, how it is looking, how it is treated, how it is accepted or ignored.

what we are privy to pause and recognize are the observations are what the thoughts are saying, thinking, projecting, vibrating, responding reacting, how we can adjust our thoughts and create alternative realities.

what we are privy to pause and recognize are the observations of what the senses are experiencing, texture, smells, tastes, colors, we are the feeling of our feelings, but we are not our feelings,we can identify a sensation and observe, as we are privy to pause and watch the emotion have its journey too, without the need to attach to the emotion, joy, or non joy. 

All is all and thoroughly impermanence is permanent. 

Permanence, as the learning has reminded me, lives in everything, and of late everything is depicted as energy, so everything consumed can be returned as energy.

 Language and communication however, the over-standing and understanding of how our perceptions of this energy forms into matter is of our own making through our own resonance and dis-chord.

Language is our tool for everything, for everything can be translated, transmuted, transgressed, transferred, transformed, transpired for the greatest good or the worst experience ever, through language.

verbal or non verbal, seen or unseen, language is our constant, Lang, to mean long. language and our perception of the ideology of words are what we reside in, often through our lack of self awareness of our self development which by design is formed through our mis guided educations. or our inability to trust what is intuitively on point. 

we learn at an early age, the opinions of others far exceeds the opinion of the vulnerable self of the individual, weakened by the dualism of no mind, a catalyst for confusion, paranoia, insecurities, vulnerabilities, emotions when observed can be fodder for evolutionary and permanent change for greater growth and prosperity for the highest and greatest good of all, or fodder for the negative aspects of self neglect.

to recognize the three in one, the trilogy in our dualism opens the preconceived notions,

a small example as i was reflecting on the lords pray, and the words the say "

"give us this day our daily bread"

this subliminal i believe has two letters missing,

i have a strong sense that this line ought to have been written and further absorbed and understood through our impermanence, is "give us this day our daily breadth"

when i put the th on bread and added the d back into the word breadth (breathe) the direct impact on my body's energetic field was of a greater capacity, i found in breadth, an ease where this wasn't the experience offering the same ease through the word, breath. ^

vibrations of letters bring cause and effect to our emotional bodies, especially if  we are emotional beings before all else, having been transparent and therefore weakened through the ridicule designed for the wise to dis regard disrespect, and abuse challenging wisdom.  Thus creating overbearing sensitivity through advertising and the gaslighting of unacceptable emotional behavioral patterns to denials of all opposing and positive alternative notions.

we are born self knowing, remembering ourselves is not for everyone, but for us the we, that are born to doubt, why not exercise the non verbal it may help to exorcise the proverbial.

to learn the trilogy of human form, we are given god the father the the son and god the holy ghost.

as children we often hear the words "who are ya" and we scratch around for an identity, when all we really need to own is our own trilogy and find a balance for communication betwixt this Trine of individualism. (noting the reason for confusion we are of the trilogy in our in divi dual isms.

when we reflect on ourselves as in div i dual, when we identify we are speaking of multiplications of 2 when we are told we have a split personality (and we are female, then primarily we are per~daughters not per~ sons) when we consider absent mindlessly of what a split personality looks like, we consider the heckle and Hyde, one of two personalities, rarely do we consider the third person in the human trilogy. 

when in real terms the trilogy translates as ME, MYSELF and I 

increasing self trust through the eyes of who I am not, and observing the I Am in me, as i resist the labels of my past  and continue to persevere with the resonance of the I Am possible is an absolute challenge, for  as humans our attention to detail and our ability to remember what we last said two minutes ago or where we left our keys, or what we ate, yep, the human conditioning often leaves for absent mindlessness, so memory and retention of memory are not our greatest gifts for today's world, today's world designed for no mind at all, and to function for function's sake, without creative input or purpose has been the desired outcome, led by and through the hierarchical governance of planet earth.

 So to set the  challenge is the word and are the words we are using, choosing,expressing the true, i am, the third member of the dualistic identity, remembering we are of the magic number 3, and further choosing, to stay on course with what i am born to do with less distractions and less influences from the being, doing, and living words, formed from thoughts, emotions or projected beliefs of all that i am not.

to increase self trust, implies self trust exists, developing this trust, is the goal, 

the outcome, is 

I trust myself simplistically, impeccably, wholly and completely <> <3 <>  

working progress :)(:

kCp