increase self awareness

 

Self help management tools

Coping strategies.

Real time]

Anxiety

Treading water

Acceptance

Self talk

Questions

Mirroring

Affirmation

Motivation

Continuity

Grounding

Confidence

Truth

Success

However success is quantified when diagnosed and rejected

Abandoned yet protected

Bi polar and what that means to me.

Support network what does that look like.

Prevention beats cure

Labels

 

New beginnings

Art therapy

Going with the flow

Yes I have been, have you been too? 

How has this helped you with your life's journey?

Yes you have been, what? Have I been, what? 

What has it been that has helped me with my life's journey?

Oh sorry!

Labeled existence:, 

have you been labeled as

Medically disabled?

Has it been written that you are incurable but manageable?

How if you had,

would this allow you 

to move forward with your big ambitions

when restrictions are attached to mental ill health conditions

Does that state fixed limitations?

Once labeled and stigma sticks

What  is laughter and magic tricks?

Mental ill health, 

leave it alone

put it at the back of the shelf.

And let The battle within

As the deflection begins.

To remain on the back of the shelf seems appealing, 

Yet there are mornings when life is more than a feeling.

Days when silence will take on a new meaning.

Days when hidden skills adapt to their new surrounding

Days when thought rotates into action

Days when labels are no longer a distraction.

These are the days i live for 

The days where i am not in observation of my moment to moment existence

Days when i am in my flow of natural resistance,

Days when I am in harmony and at peace with myself and not because I am hiding at the back of the shelf.

Days of self expression without oppression or lies

Days of creative process where natural ability flies,

Then there are the days when i venture to meet my kin and

The anxiety sets in.

I see your active creative and being quite loud, i see you're stepping out of the crowd,

Are words i hear them say, followed by

Have you taken your medication today?

I pause in fear as Their doubt in me is clear.

Return to  the silence as observation of labels hold strong and

Without my labels to my kin, I do not belong.

Becomes the new self belief, succumbing to the label and get back to the shelf.

Thus Singing to the sound of one's own tune 

Will often leads to self isolation,

As self doubt wins through fear of observation 

of others.

How hard is it really to accept the difference between our sisters and our brothers?

Self doubt is the worst doubt of all

As it leads to

Never ending circles sprillaing up only to fall

Or an endless game of snakes and ladders

When everything is important but nothing really matters.

I know I am not alone in this fate, not the only one to make continuous mistakes.

For often you'll find in every family 

A mechanic.

Yes I have been, have you been too? 

How has this helped you with your life's journey?

How has this helped me with my life's journey?

It is my life's journey!

Yet labeling the self 

does not help, 

as a continual brainwash it is appalling.

As a default position its a warning,

As ideas grow and begin forming

Labels define, we walk a fine line

And anxiety brings submission,

Action in question so revert to television.

Or go

Zen.

For In the power of now

There lives an acceptance of being present  without question without knowledge and without having to be correct.

Life's journey and self awareness where acknowledgement appreciates reflective space and a listening ear.

KcP june 2020